Quitter! Quitter! Quitter!
I can just hear the accusations now. BUT IT WAS HARD! Bad excuse, hey. I'm sorry, really I am. But it's getting boring, and I'm not committed, and that's about all I can say. Sorry for boring you, I know I was.
YAY! now I can write other things, like reviews and short pieces and lists! Oh, lists! And I'll post photos regularly and I promise I won't be boring ever again!
So I'll leave it here today. Tomorrow will bring a whole new blog. Woo!
Ciao!
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Laaaaaaaaazy.
SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY!
I've been so slack, I do apologize. My couple of days of trust went alright. But it was definitely a hard task.
This week I've been focusing on being 'caring'. So when my workmate went home early on Monday because she felt sick, I raged in my head for a few minutes, told her I hoped she would feel better and then stuck my head down and worked solidly on the never-ending pile of photocopying for the rest of the afternoon. It's so much harder with just one person at work, but it couldn't have been helped.
I think I was most caring, however, when I cancelled a few outings on the weekend to recover from fatigue. I'm always forgetting to take care of myself, so this week definitely reminded me.
This week is one I hate. My highschool motto included this word and I HATE HATE HATE it. Integrity. I don't even know what it means! But, I'm resolved to doing something about it. First I'm going to find out what it means. Like, right now. Back in half an hour or so, with a definition and a task! :D
I've been so slack, I do apologize. My couple of days of trust went alright. But it was definitely a hard task.
This week I've been focusing on being 'caring'. So when my workmate went home early on Monday because she felt sick, I raged in my head for a few minutes, told her I hoped she would feel better and then stuck my head down and worked solidly on the never-ending pile of photocopying for the rest of the afternoon. It's so much harder with just one person at work, but it couldn't have been helped.
I think I was most caring, however, when I cancelled a few outings on the weekend to recover from fatigue. I'm always forgetting to take care of myself, so this week definitely reminded me.
This week is one I hate. My highschool motto included this word and I HATE HATE HATE it. Integrity. I don't even know what it means! But, I'm resolved to doing something about it. First I'm going to find out what it means. Like, right now. Back in half an hour or so, with a definition and a task! :D
Friday, May 6, 2011
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
TRUST.
Yes, that's right, this week's word is 'Trust'. I know it's already Wednesday, but there are still a good 4 days left of the week to devote to my humble little self-mastery card.
The only thing is, I have a problem with this week's card. Of course, it's a great virtue to have, but I think it has very large limitations. The world we live in today is not a trustworthy one. There have always been bad people in the world, and there always will be. But what my mum used to call 'bad', like shop-lifting and street violence, has escalated into something much bigger. School kids shoplift. Teenagers beat each other up. A night out at a bar or a club is becoming more and more dangerous, with drink spiking, drunken fights and drug abuse. Fathers beat their wives, mothers abuse their children, and loved ones kill other loved ones. In a very real way, trust is going out the window.
Maybe I'm taking it too far, but even so, I'm constantly being told I'm too trustworthy. People trust me and I trust people - that's just the way it is with me. Tell me something plausible, and I'll believe you. It's not because I'm an idiot. I won't deny I'm somewhat naive but I'm definitely not an idiot. I think it's more because I like to give people the benefit of the doubt. What's worse: being gullible and believing, or skeptical and cynical?
So is it a good idea to focus on trust this week? Don't I trust people enough?
I think this week I'd just like to think about it when I decide to trust someone. I don't want to change how I am in this regard, because it's just, well... how I am!
What's that? Orange backwards spells gullible? Nice bloody try.
The only thing is, I have a problem with this week's card. Of course, it's a great virtue to have, but I think it has very large limitations. The world we live in today is not a trustworthy one. There have always been bad people in the world, and there always will be. But what my mum used to call 'bad', like shop-lifting and street violence, has escalated into something much bigger. School kids shoplift. Teenagers beat each other up. A night out at a bar or a club is becoming more and more dangerous, with drink spiking, drunken fights and drug abuse. Fathers beat their wives, mothers abuse their children, and loved ones kill other loved ones. In a very real way, trust is going out the window.
Maybe I'm taking it too far, but even so, I'm constantly being told I'm too trustworthy. People trust me and I trust people - that's just the way it is with me. Tell me something plausible, and I'll believe you. It's not because I'm an idiot. I won't deny I'm somewhat naive but I'm definitely not an idiot. I think it's more because I like to give people the benefit of the doubt. What's worse: being gullible and believing, or skeptical and cynical?
So is it a good idea to focus on trust this week? Don't I trust people enough?
I think this week I'd just like to think about it when I decide to trust someone. I don't want to change how I am in this regard, because it's just, well... how I am!
What's that? Orange backwards spells gullible? Nice bloody try.
Far Behind.
Sorry folks for the delay.
So I had a slight flirt on Wednesday, then talked to someone I didn't know when I was at my friends' birthday dinner, but didn't do anything else that I was meant to last week. I was supposed to write several more lists, and as much as I like making lists, I don't really think they would have made me feel confident in any way.
'The thing is, and here's the thing' (Hannah Abell, 2011), that the information on the internet sucks asshole. I knew this before I started the challenge (which was very short lived and pointless), but I even further confirmed it last week. Anyone can write anything on the internet. I don't think it's possible to dictate to people how to simply be confident. Some people are born with it, others aren't. Sure, everyone knows that a new outfit and haircut make you feel great, but the fact is that deep, true confidence comes slowly over time, after we've learnt things and been places and had many an embarrassing moment, not after we've just splurged on a pair of expensive shoes.
Therefore, I surmise that I am a semi-confident person. It's developing; it's getting there. But it's got a way to go yet.
So I had a slight flirt on Wednesday, then talked to someone I didn't know when I was at my friends' birthday dinner, but didn't do anything else that I was meant to last week. I was supposed to write several more lists, and as much as I like making lists, I don't really think they would have made me feel confident in any way.
'The thing is, and here's the thing' (Hannah Abell, 2011), that the information on the internet sucks asshole. I knew this before I started the challenge (which was very short lived and pointless), but I even further confirmed it last week. Anyone can write anything on the internet. I don't think it's possible to dictate to people how to simply be confident. Some people are born with it, others aren't. Sure, everyone knows that a new outfit and haircut make you feel great, but the fact is that deep, true confidence comes slowly over time, after we've learnt things and been places and had many an embarrassing moment, not after we've just splurged on a pair of expensive shoes.
Therefore, I surmise that I am a semi-confident person. It's developing; it's getting there. But it's got a way to go yet.
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